KATE

Listening to Sharon Van Etten

I remember you Kate

Beautiful girl

Your boyish grin

Your boyish haircut

Thumbs hooked into your jeans

How we’d talk about girls

Playing pool at the gay bar whose name I forget

Listening to silence

I remember the night

Soaking wet

You told me

You had a secret

I said if it was that you were a lesbian

That was half the reason I liked you

And no reason to stop being your friend

Listening to rainfall

I remember the morning

Smoking menthols

You told me

How your first love

Broke your heart and broke off ties

Like half your family and friends

Was already married and pregnant

Listening to nothing

I remember that Toronto night

Eating Greek food

You introduced me

To your fiancée

Two beautiful girls

Making me blush and look away

As you snuck kisses in the restaurant

Listening to my blood rush

I remember that afternoon

At your front door

Your sister told me

About your suicide

Just before your wedding

I walked home crying

Not needing to see the streets we played on

Kate, I love you miss you remember you